I need to change!!!

Dear God Almighty,
Why am i writing this out in my blog? Is there something You want to tell others through me? I just felt that I had to write, or in other words type his out here. First and foremost, i just want to thank You God for everything in my life, everything You have blessed me with. Wonderful friends, wonderful parents and siblings, a very very good growing environment(compared to other people), material things, and most importantly the chance to get to know such a wonderful God like You.

Many times i wonder, those people who loves You so much and serves You with all their heart, since they're filled with You in their lives, does that mean that they never get sad or discouraged? Cause if they do, then does that counter the statement that all christians are always filled with joy and should show everyone how joyful they are to have You in their lives?

Once again, looking into the bible, I found that even David, the man after God's heart, sin and even go through time of sorrow and sadness. What is the purpose of this? What i have experienced is, God wants us to go through these things because these are the times we draw close to God and these are the times God has a chance to be really close to us. Smetimes we're so busy we even forgotten God's existence. Can this also be some sort of a test from God for us? Maybe. Maybe it is time for us to grow in the Lord. We can't be babies forever right. We have to grow from being a baby to becoming a worrior of God.

Many people take things for granted. Myself included. Lets not talk about other and just use me as an example. There are many things i take for granted. For example my time, my talents, my material things, and even God. Talents are gifts from God. If i take them for granted, they could be taken away as easily as it is gifted unto me. I must change. I must stop this attitude of taking things for granted. Help me Lord.

As i look at people around me. The things they do. The sins they commit without even thinking twice, my heart really hurts at the sight of those things. God died on the cross for us, for our sins. Sometimes, we take His forgiveness for granted. We say,"I do this,then after that ask for forgiveness lo,God sure forgive me wan", little did we know that each time we sin, we are nailing Him on the cross once again.

Just imagine this, He beared our sins for us. Just imagine that each one of our sins is one strike of the whip, the whip that tore Jesus's skin apart. Yes, He will definetly forgive you,but don't forget that at the same time when you sin that you're hurting Him again, nailing Him on the cross again. I dont want that. I don't want Him to suffer anymore. Many that don't know Christ sin without even knowing it. So for those of us who know when we're sinning, why don't we just stop it!? I know its impossible not to sin because all of us are humans, but i sure all of us can at least reduce it?

I can guarantee that not sinning won't make you feel worse, it will make you feel better...much much better. I've tried, why not you? I think the most important thing is to spend time with God. Once you do so, everything will fall into place. I'm not saying that is you spend time with God you won't sin la, but at least if you do so consistently, you will realise that you will be guided by the Holy Spirit, which by then should be one of your true friends.

If you feel like you've just went through a lecture, forgive me ^.^

Just want to end this post with a prayer.
Lord Jesus, Thank You Lord for waking me up today, for gifting me with another day in this world. I want to pray Lord that You will continue to reveal my purpose in life. Even right now, i want to pray for those who are facing exams, whether it is spm or stpm or even exam in their unis or colleges, whether it is this month or the next. Just pray that You will be with them Lord, leading them and guiding them all the way. When they feel nervous, i pray that You will instill peace in their hearts Lord. Let them know that You're right beside them Lord. If God is for us, who can be against us?

Lord i pray that if we have sinned against You or have taken You for granted, i pray that You'll forgive us Lord. Pray that all my friends will continue to grow in You, that they will know that You have a plan for them, a plan to prosper them and not to harm them, a plan to give them a hope and a future. You love us so much Lord, and i love You too Lord. True love contains no fear. I pray that You will teach me to have no fear of others that speak bad about You Lord. I pray that i will be able to stand up to those who abuse You and Your name.

I admit that i am weak Lord. Strengthen me Lord. Let the weak say i am strong, let the poor say i am rich, let the blind say i can see, thats what the Lord has done in me. =) All this i pray in Jesus name, Amen.