God in my living There in my breathing
God in my waking God in my sleeping
God in my resting There in my working
God in my thinking God in my speaking
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
Be my everything
God in my hoping There in my dreaming
God in my watching God in my waiting
God in my laughing There in my weeping
God in my hurting God in my healing
Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
You are everything
Christ in me
Christ in me
Christ in me the hope of glory
Be my everything
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Reality check
I want to begin with an apology for my little bloggie for not feeding it for some while. =) Sorry bloggie. On many occasions i had the urgency to "feed" my blog but in the end when i sit down, the mood was just gone with the wind. The spirit was willing but the flesh was weak.
The month of October has really been a great month for me. If others were in my shoes, they might put it as the worst month of the year, but i want to look at it in a positive way. The month of October has really hit me hard, pulling me back to reality.
The bad things that happened drowned the good things, and i must say this...I THANK GOD IT HAPPENED!!! Firstly, it started with me getting a not so good results in my finals for my first sem. I didn't cry or anything, but those result really affected me, and i know no one else is to blame but me. I nearly couldn't get an A for my english language. If i really didn't get an A, the chances of me going home to see my parents we...nil. OK...maybe i'm going overboard.
Then came the interesting bad thing. Within a time period of 1week+, 3 friends told me i have changed, that i had bad behaviours. I was like...ok... When i asked them what is that specific bad behaviour, they didn't want tot tell me. All they said was you should know la. I was like swt... As a friend why not just tell me what i did wrong so that i can change? One of their reply was quite meaningless. One of them said, "if i told you what it is, i'm afraid i won't be able to face you as a friend anymore."
I was thinking like "WAT!?!" , so you want to keep it in your heart and hate me your whole life? I rather you tell me and not be friends with me. At least i noe what i did wrong and change, and at least they don't need to become friends with a friend like me. I deserve it anyway. Gosh,i feel so much like putting a foul word in front of the word FRIEND in the previous sentense.
I kept thinking about what i did, but just couldn't think of anything that i did that could cause such hatred. I guess i either did it unconciously, or i was blinded by my ego. To all my friends out there, if i have hurt you in the past in any way possible, I'M SO SORRY. I guess writing it here doesn't shown sincerity at all right, and its kinda useless. OK. If i have hurt any of you, pls let me know, i will come to you personally and say sorry. Its from my heart.
I love all my friends and i would never want to hurt them. Guess i was wrong, i already did pierce through a few hearts. I guess what was written in the bible is right. The tongue is such a powerful tool. It can be used for good and evil. On both occasions, it has great effect. Its proven, through me.
Through this tough time i have learnt to withdraw and seek God. I am so happy and filled with joy when i am in the presense of my Lord. =) I want to change to who God wants me to be. It will be a process, but i'll just have to slowly go through it. Hopefully next time when they said that i've changed, it would be for the better. =)
I've decided to commit myself to putting God first in my life, and i want to challenge everyone to do the same too. I know its hard, but its better than not trying. God is patient, he will always be waiting for you. Let worshipping and praising God be not just a Saturday and Sunday thingi, but instead let it be a daily thing till the last breath. Just want to thank all my friends for keeping me in prayer. THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING!!! Be my everything. =)
The month of October has really been a great month for me. If others were in my shoes, they might put it as the worst month of the year, but i want to look at it in a positive way. The month of October has really hit me hard, pulling me back to reality.
The bad things that happened drowned the good things, and i must say this...I THANK GOD IT HAPPENED!!! Firstly, it started with me getting a not so good results in my finals for my first sem. I didn't cry or anything, but those result really affected me, and i know no one else is to blame but me. I nearly couldn't get an A for my english language. If i really didn't get an A, the chances of me going home to see my parents we...nil. OK...maybe i'm going overboard.
Then came the interesting bad thing. Within a time period of 1week+, 3 friends told me i have changed, that i had bad behaviours. I was like...ok... When i asked them what is that specific bad behaviour, they didn't want tot tell me. All they said was you should know la. I was like swt... As a friend why not just tell me what i did wrong so that i can change? One of their reply was quite meaningless. One of them said, "if i told you what it is, i'm afraid i won't be able to face you as a friend anymore."
I was thinking like "WAT!?!" , so you want to keep it in your heart and hate me your whole life? I rather you tell me and not be friends with me. At least i noe what i did wrong and change, and at least they don't need to become friends with a friend like me. I deserve it anyway. Gosh,i feel so much like putting a foul word in front of the word FRIEND in the previous sentense.
I kept thinking about what i did, but just couldn't think of anything that i did that could cause such hatred. I guess i either did it unconciously, or i was blinded by my ego. To all my friends out there, if i have hurt you in the past in any way possible, I'M SO SORRY. I guess writing it here doesn't shown sincerity at all right, and its kinda useless. OK. If i have hurt any of you, pls let me know, i will come to you personally and say sorry. Its from my heart.
I love all my friends and i would never want to hurt them. Guess i was wrong, i already did pierce through a few hearts. I guess what was written in the bible is right. The tongue is such a powerful tool. It can be used for good and evil. On both occasions, it has great effect. Its proven, through me.
Through this tough time i have learnt to withdraw and seek God. I am so happy and filled with joy when i am in the presense of my Lord. =) I want to change to who God wants me to be. It will be a process, but i'll just have to slowly go through it. Hopefully next time when they said that i've changed, it would be for the better. =)
I've decided to commit myself to putting God first in my life, and i want to challenge everyone to do the same too. I know its hard, but its better than not trying. God is patient, he will always be waiting for you. Let worshipping and praising God be not just a Saturday and Sunday thingi, but instead let it be a daily thing till the last breath. Just want to thank all my friends for keeping me in prayer. THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERYTHING!!! Be my everything. =)
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
A wonderful week =)
Well, as promised, my blog has been revived. =) Many things happened throughout the past week. I will bring you through each even in...lets say..."quite detail"...well, i will make it as detailed as possible.
26 Sept 2009
Finals were finally over. Everyone(me in particular), breathe a huge *SIGH* of relief. The only thoughts going through everyone's minds is how to spend/enjoy their holidays. I didn't have to plan much as some things had already been planned out for me.
And so some boring days passed...
30 Sept 2009
My birthday. Surprisingly many ppl wished me happy birthday. Total count was around 15+- ppl. I know for some ppl its not really that many but for me, its more than i ever had on my birthday since the day i was born. Hehe... I was touched by all those wishes. Thankz everyone!!! Well, the camp fell on the same day as my birthday. They planned a surprise for me. Well, it was my brothers idea (thx so much bro...muax), but it wasn't him who bought the cake (LOL...jk jk). OK...i blushed when they gave me the surprise, but i didn't get to eat any of the cake cause i was too full...hehe...Missed HER so much...
Well, the camp was a 3 days 2 nights camp and i must say, it really tested me and streched me both physically and mentally. I really enjoyed the camp. =) Thank You God!!!
4 Oct 2009
Woke up early in the morning. Served my God by playing for the first and second service =). Was treated pizza by church members (thanks everyone!)...At some point...i feel like i don't deserve any of these things. Who am i? I just a normal person. I just feel so blessed having so many friends around me, what more having them to treat me to such an expensive meal? Went to burn those calories of at X-treme park.
Thank you God for such a wonderful week. =). Well, last but not least, i got sick yesterday (6 Oct 2009). It was like fever+stomach ache. Rested for almost the whole day, think i slept for bout more than 12 hours (excluding normal sleeping time). Felt so much better after hours of rest. Kitty and HER visited me too. =) Guess that was part of the reason i felt better...hehe...
As of right now (7 Oct 2009), i'm free from the fever and feel much better. Thanks everyone for all your prayers. Appreciate it lots!!!
26 Sept 2009
Finals were finally over. Everyone(me in particular), breathe a huge *SIGH* of relief. The only thoughts going through everyone's minds is how to spend/enjoy their holidays. I didn't have to plan much as some things had already been planned out for me.
And so some boring days passed...
30 Sept 2009
My birthday. Surprisingly many ppl wished me happy birthday. Total count was around 15+- ppl. I know for some ppl its not really that many but for me, its more than i ever had on my birthday since the day i was born. Hehe... I was touched by all those wishes. Thankz everyone!!! Well, the camp fell on the same day as my birthday. They planned a surprise for me. Well, it was my brothers idea (thx so much bro...muax), but it wasn't him who bought the cake (LOL...jk jk). OK...i blushed when they gave me the surprise, but i didn't get to eat any of the cake cause i was too full...hehe...Missed HER so much...
Well, the camp was a 3 days 2 nights camp and i must say, it really tested me and streched me both physically and mentally. I really enjoyed the camp. =) Thank You God!!!
4 Oct 2009
Woke up early in the morning. Served my God by playing for the first and second service =). Was treated pizza by church members (thanks everyone!)...At some point...i feel like i don't deserve any of these things. Who am i? I just a normal person. I just feel so blessed having so many friends around me, what more having them to treat me to such an expensive meal? Went to burn those calories of at X-treme park.
Thank you God for such a wonderful week. =). Well, last but not least, i got sick yesterday (6 Oct 2009). It was like fever+stomach ache. Rested for almost the whole day, think i slept for bout more than 12 hours (excluding normal sleeping time). Felt so much better after hours of rest. Kitty and HER visited me too. =) Guess that was part of the reason i felt better...hehe...
As of right now (7 Oct 2009), i'm free from the fever and feel much better. Thanks everyone for all your prayers. Appreciate it lots!!!
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